Fathers Day

Today is a bit too frustrating already. Kane is pacing the house already knowing that, aside from a miracle his dad is not going to show. I got a voicemail from the doucheface last night and it didn't sound promising. I'm so frustrated. We are downplaying fathers day in the house and not talking about it at all. Unfortunately school does a great job at reminding kids to shower their "active" parents with gifts. Thank you school :( !

"I'm not making a gift for dad cus he wont come anyway" GAHH!!!!

You stupid doucheface..how can you not want to spend every waking moment with this curious, funny, quirky, loving, fantastic, awesome boy??????

Tats..ready

I have made a decision on my tattoo. I have always wanted one. Just afraid of taking the next step. Simple and small. Well I have decided on two things. My sons name, and Faith. The two things that mean the most to me. My son will always be first. He is my true love. So on my inside wrist he will go. In a scroll to the other side will be Faith. As a reminder to never lose it....

hear that beat..douche dead beat...

Nothing like a looming fathers day to set off a cranky hot mess. My poor baby has realized that he does not see his dad like the other kids do. The only job I cant be for him. A father. GRRRR! The last week or two he has been off. Kids have been working on projects for their dads for fathers day. The teacher being smart as she is, knows Kane has a dead beat so she replaces Grandpa for the missing dad. Kane insists he is not doing anything because "dad wont show up anyway". OMG my heart dropped to the floor.

He has been acting out for attention. I decided to take a vacation during this time and missed the brunt of it!! (sorry mom). I have since returned and am trying my best to lay down the law - no tantrums or screaming or yelling, while showering him with love. Very hard to do when he insists I'm a horrible bad mean mom. I am trying. I am trying so hard.